AHHHH.i hate my life now..so stressful and tiring..i kinda wake up in fear almost everyday cos i know i have so much to do and have so little time..rahh..the fear of not able to finish wat i planned to do..i am feeling so discouraged too.jz felt tt no matter wat i do i still wun do well.how?!i dun have time..i need miracle to happen.it's diff to put how i feel in words..BUT I'M STRESSED..WAHAHA

oh freak i'm raining

i was smiling to slp this morning, recieving all the 'happy birthday' and blessing frm all the ppl who remembered my birthday..haha..
i went to ZOO.yes it's singapore zoological garden..haha.it has been so long since i went to the zoo.so i decided to do something special on the impt 18th yr of my life..haha..i went with tj louise aidil and augustine..haha..i had lots of fun looking at all the animals.blah blah blah..haha..and i hope all of them had fun too..haha.we walked for quite long lo..haha..frm 10.30 to about 2pm..haha..we have strong legs..haha..well i tink the WHITE tigers had made the greatest impression on me cos they really look so pretty and wow..haha.the elephant show was very nice too..haha..our lunch was KFC.and had ben and jerry for dessert..haha..yum yum yum..shall put up some pics once i get hold of them..gee.i love the ZOO.wahaha.
went to my grandma house in the evening..haha..got ba zhang to eat.i love my grandma's ba zhang.it's the best in tho world.i ate quite a few..so feeling quite fat and guilty now..opps..shall go on a diet tml..haha..had cake too..but i purposely choose something without cream..haha..but well my hair got messed up instead..haha..i feel fortunate to have my aunties uncles and cousins to celebrate my bdae with..gee
aidil gave me this cd with a video which he made it himself..i am really touched..haha..really brought back alot of my memories..haha..i mz admit tt i almost cried..thank u so much aidil!!!=)and we will remain friends forever!!!gee

thank u:
louise!
tianju!
aidil!
augustine!!
khairy
jiamin
erwin
jongling
jieli
kimberly
mengqi
shihua
zhiqi
jiayue
cindy
claire
tammie
brian
xiner
kat
ah poh
yuhan
beatrix
wanting
yuetfang
jane
peirong
joel
hongyu
weijun
for remembering and giving me all ur blessings.u ppl really make my day=)=)

had a few disappointment today..but i am not going to let them affect my day..i am happy!!!gee.

i'm going to the zoo zoo zoo.gee.

i'm lucky to have u.thank u for doing so much for me.

i'm a nerd

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 4 DAYS TIME.haha..cant help but feeling abit excited bout it..although i still have no idea how am i going to celebrate my bdae but i am excited bout being 18..haha.."shi ba yi duo hua"(you will be a flower when u turn 18).means i will be a pretty gal..WAHAHA.amd i moe i will be going to the zoo.YIPPEE.cant wait to see how much have the zoo changes and the animals..haha..


went for cip at the singapore sci centre last wed and thurs..although i din manage to help much during the DNA lessons i enjoyed myself doing all the random stuff and toking to beatrix yinzhen augustine and the ppl working there..haha..their working environment is rather relax and stressless..they are also very friendly and crazy..haha..we also have 5 dollars MCdonalds vouncher each day..haha..


12 more days to sch reopen..haha..i still have alot of work and revision to do la..rahh..was rushing through my work today..i'm having backache for sitting at my table for so long..hahahaha..sld i finish my revision or finish my work first?haha..GANBATTE.


anw.HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINLING and all the GEMINIs in the world..haha..love love

oh no i forget wat i wan to blog bout..haha..my sis jz came home..she is complaining to my dad bout how horrible and rude taxi driver was..haha..so funny.maybe she will get wrinkles soon.haha..if she read this entry she is so going to kill me la..
i'm rather broke le la.i'm eating into my savings.my savings which i wan to shop wif..rahh..wanted to shop badly..but since i am broke now, i no longer feel excited bout it le la..rahh..FOOD IS SO COSTLY.no wonder so many ppl in the world are still live in poverty..haha..

dun ask me anything.
and i noe u prolly wun read this...

do u wan to tok to me?are u unhappy wif me?are u jz tired?tell me if u wan to be left alone.tell me if u are unhappy.tell me wat sld i do now..rahh.i feel so ignored and helpless.

jz came back frm acjc choir concert..haven even change and remove my make up..haha..watching "beauty and the geek" now..super funny show..haha.laughing my head off..
28 one of my fav numbers..haha..gd day.had fun.i will not complain bout wat i have.haha.

3rd and 4th placing:ACJC vs RJC [0-2]
two injustice goals!!!it was comfrimed by the ampire tt the first sld not be counted as the players were not 5 yards away frm each other when they are btw the D and dotted line..rahh..so pissed..not tt i am a sore loser but i seriously dun tink RJ deserve the 2 goals.i can say tt our team played well and fought hard..i noe we wan it and nvr give up till the very last whistle..haha..i am so proud of acjc hockey'07..i tink it's our common goal, hard work and ac spirit tt brought us this far..of course, we cant forget GOD for all the wonderful things he did during this seasons..haha..
i'm starting to miss hockey le..although sometimes i really dread training due to laziness and tiredness.but i cant deny tt i love hockey frm the bottom of my heart..haha..i was watching the FA cup jz now..the match reminded me so much bout hockey.how the forwards run into space to receive the ball and beat the defender..haha..i learnt so much from hockey..i nvr regret not giving up on hockey, thanks to all my friends who continued to encourage me and keep me going..haha..
it had been a wonderful season..long but unforgettable..all the friendships tt i have made.18th MAY 2007 .i will nvr forget..i love all the hockey gals..haha..
end of hockey season=start of mugging..ganbatte!!!

was in a bad mood these few days..rahh.i wan to be understanding..does by caring lesser makes u feel better..i dun wan to be a stress giver..rahh...am i really so scary..haha..i dunno y, but it really hurts to noe tt i am a stress giver.the feeling is back.can anyone do anything special to cheer me up?leaving me alone wun help..i wan TRUE HAPPINESS from the bottom of my heart!=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=) ( 16 smileys and 16th of each mth will always be my fav day!!!)

have been very busy and tired this few weeks..haha..i need more sleep and energy..i am always sleeping during classes these day la..felt so bad..next week will also be a hectic week for me..ACJC HOCKEY'07 got into the semis..haha..it will be taking place on mon 14 may 2007 3pm at delta..haha..do come and support us..
sometimes i really hope tt things will end very soon..but i dun i will get used to life without hockey..haha..
"selective memory" is the best medicine to all ur hurts and disappointment?

have been very busy and tired this few weeks..haha..i need more sleep and energy..i am always sleeping during classes these day la..felt so bad..next week will also be a hectic week for me..ACJC HOCKEY'07 got into the semis..haha..it will be taking place on mon 14 may 2007 3pm at delta..haha..do come and support us..
sometimes i really hope tt things will end very soon..but i dun i will get used to life without hockey..haha..
"selective memory" is the best medicine to all ur hurts and disappointment?

i'm feeling really sad today.disappointed, hurt and angry.i have not cried so badly for some time.my heart hurts.
how can i feel better?i tried not tinking bout everything.forget tt it every happen and get on wif life.i even stop breathing to stop my heart frm pumping to make it hurts lesser.but i am still not happier!!i really wan to be happy again..rahh..

this yr has been quite fruitful..haha..training for A div blah blah blah..cant imagine my life without training..haha..although hockey has made me tired and busy..it has taught me to plan my time better and cause me to lose weight..haha..no training=no exercise..i am goin to be fat again..my double chin will be coming back..sob sob..
we will be having an important match on wed against RJC..RJC can onli win us by 3 goals so tt we can get into the next round..haha..although RJ may be good.i believe tt we can take them on cos WE WANT IT!!!!!!we trained hard for it and we deserve it..FIGHT ON AC hockers'07.we can do it!!!!

i'm missing many ppl suddenly.i felt tt i'm starting to lose contact wif many ppl..even wif my very gd frenz like louise and tj.hockey and sch work always make me so busy and tired to contact them..i cant even find time to go out wif them..rahh..i tink i am givin myself too many excuses..i feel tt i am a bad fren..i really miss them alot..i wan to noe how they are now..and i have so much to tell them.

kiku said tt i seldom blog..therefore this entry is for her!haha..
i will be going for a 5 days hockey camp in sch frm tml onwards..not really looking forward to it cos i have many other things to do this holiday and i am scared bout the toughness of the camp..i really hope things will turn out ok..i am so going to miss home.after joining hockey, i jz love being home.cant wait to go home after sch on the days which i have no hockey..
he left me in spore again..though this is not the first time but i still feel as bad as the first time when he was away..rahh..i'm feeling so sad and distracted today..i am waiting for his call now..haha..i cant msg him cos he dun allow me to.waiting is all i can do..=(
i hope tt i will not get too dark after the 5 days and tt i can slim down!!!!may the 5 days pass very quickly!!!
btw thanks tj for all the encouragement u have given me..u motivated me to do even better and to tell myself tt i am not as 'small' as wat i tot i am..(nice card!!)love ya..

i realises tt my entries recently are rather negative..haha..but i really dun have much happy stuff which i wan to blog bout..maybe the fact tt i got into the team!haha..i am really gld tt my effort is paid off.i noe tt this is onli the beginning for me..i have to work harder once i am in the team..more hardwork and lesser free time..haha..
hockey camp will be frm mon to fri next week in sch..so sad tt we canot go to malaysian..=(and i dun have time to study for my terms..i have to work even harder these days..no slacking..i dun wan to be stressed up..relax relax..take a deep breathe..haha..
ganbatte fangling!!!

i'm sick and tired of all the ttyl and gd nite.

i'm in a bad mood suddenly..really feel like crying la.or maybe i did cry.haiz..i also dunn why..maybe cos i have been really tired and busy these things and things are not really tt right for me..rahh..there's so much to do but i onli have a limited 24 hrs each day.it makes me more tired when i have to force myself to stay awake to do my hw or study for tests.i dun even get a break during my weekends.i mz treasure every single sec i have, to rush thru all my work and study for the upcoming tests.i'm working so hard.but y i still dun get wat i deserve?rahhh
i will do anything to be happy!!!!

i really wan it badly..i am willing to give in my all for the little time i have to show my ability..i am going to fight for wat i wan..i really hope tt my effort will be paid off..ganbatte to me!!!

i noe i cant do this with my own ability..but i believe if i lean on HIS strength i can.i noe HE has the BEST plan for me..HAVE FAITH.

am i giving myself unwanted stress?

issit really ok to not get stuff u worked hard for at times?

it is really ok not to do wat u have to do?

am i making myself too tired?

will my life be easier if i give up?

these are the qns i have been asking myself very often recently..i noe i will nvr be satisfied wif the little things i have now..i noe i cant give up..
i enjoy being happy.smiling frm the bottom of my heart..i love anyyone hu can make me happy or laugh.i really hope to be happy ever and i will love to share my joy!!!
i will do anything to be happy!haha..*PUT A BIG SMILE ON UR FACE!!!*

i miss having my sundays free..haha..i really miss studying in the lib on sunday.it's so nice to be back there today..=)=)

i'm finish all the work which i have to finish this week.i'm tired..shall slp early today..it's a long day tml!

motto of my life : HAPPY

i was late for sch yest for the first time in acjc due to my laziness for not wanting to walk to sch on a rainy day..thus i alighted at dover mrt station and took a bus to sch..well the bus trip is suppose to be about 10mins onli..but it took me bout 20mins in the end..thanks to all the rich AC ppl being fetched to sch..there was a big jam along acsi there la..rahh..i had to stand outside the hall since i was late..the assembly seemed much longer when u are standing..haha..but i skipped DC as there were jz too many ppl late..i heard bout 400 ppl was late..this is so cool la..haha..

went for muts yest too..haha..they were showing 'CLICK'.this is the second time i watched it..it was a sad story..haha..but i din cry..it's really sad and nice.."will u still love me in the morning?"..."forever and ever babe!"..these are the 2 sentences frm the movie u canot forget..haha..so sweet..the movie reminded me to treasure wat i have now before it's too late..we sldnt complain bout things happening in our life but to live the best out of them..haha..

it has been a cold week..i am sneezing coughing and having a sore throat..i hope i will not fall tt sick..haha...take care ppl..mz drink more water!!!haha..

was feeling rather happy this few days..haha.

i am feeling so stressed on the 5th day of sch!!!!

rahh..having econs lesson at the com lab now..so boring..apparently mdm kee has retired..and we have a new econs teacher-miss tan chee chian.so sianz.totally not in the mood to study..i'm bored..having 1 hr and 40mins of gp later.i tink i have a new gp too..today is a boring day.cant wait to go home to slp..yawnz..haha
while walking to sch today, i was tinking bout my 1st day of sch last yr.walking to sch wif tj.blah blah blah.wonderful memories..i miss 2006.
i am officially a J2 now!!!!!

last pic of 2006
1st pic of 2007
REFLECTIONS
wat i did well?: i tink i did quite well in my studies this yr bah..although i did kinda badly in GP but i tink i did my best in the rest of ym subjects..haha..

wat i did not do as well?: apart frm my studies i feel tt all the other things tt i did seem incomplete..i feel tt i din give my ALL..haiz..i am suppose to treasure my 2 yrs in JC and give my very best in everything i do..this is something which i regret bout this yr lo..i also nvr do much beside the stuff tt i have to do..i sld have attend more lessons to increase my knowledge..

NEW YR RESOLUTION
i wan to complete everything well..put in my fullest effort in everything i do..i shall treasure everything i have and make the best out of every moment.i shall try to have as little regrets as possible in the coming yr!

SPECIAL THANKS TO:
i wld like to thank all the ppl hu greatly impact or contribute to my life last yr..
my family-esp my dad and mum for doing so much for us!!!really love u both!
tianju-u will always be my best fren forever..really thank u for being there for me ever..i am so lucky to meet u
lousie-another best fren of mine..cant believe tt after going thru so much both of us still remained at very close frenz.u are the onli one hu can really read my mind so well la.to the extent tt it is rather scary..haha..
leheng-i am so happy to meet such a new fren like u.thank u for listening to all my complains..haha..i love toking to u..regardless wat is the topic!i feel so lucky wif u ard..frenz forever!<3 style="font-size:0;">aug-u also contribute to a large portion of my yr!i am very happy to noe u too..u are the first person i wish to share my happiness and sorrows wif!u make me feel dumb at times and willing to sacrifice to make things work out..i really treasure and care bout our relationship.we shall work hard together to make our relationship last k?love ya..haha..