feeling kind of hardworking today..i have started to do my revision for the upcoming tests tt i will be getting when sch reopen..and i am so proud of myself as i tink i am somehow to unwilling to go out..partly cos i have no money too..muahaha..i did phy tys topic 1.1-1.2 and a maths tys on sents lang an notation..muahaha..although it is not much but i tink i will work harder and harder each day..tink going to do a maths probability later..haha..
i have to spend more time in studying..so firstly i got to cut down on my tv time..then my com time..cos i tink this is my 2 very vital cause for me not studying..i mz phycho myself tt tv is not tt nice to watch anyway and it is boring online..haha..
so angry wif my dad..say i come online to find all the handsome guys..i am like so pissed off..he got no rites to insult me in this manner...cos i do not have to find any guys...and i noe tt i am not suppose to do this...studies is all i care...pissed me off..arhz...

no 9 

sister going to buy me ZEN NEEON..u all noe wat's tt?haha..it tink it is the newest Mp3 creative has..and the thing is u can personalise it by buying the stick on..muahaha..guess wat..i chose pink of course and i pink stick on..i dun really like pink tt much..but the other stick on dun look tt nice le ba..feel like buying the purple colour wan but dosent suit the stick on i wanted..so choose pink lo..oh ya..but i have to pay half for it lo..by instalment cos i am currently bankrupt..
muahaha..my sis is so nice..haha..tt day i made her angry then she say dun wan to buy for me le..but now she is going to buy for me again..haha..so happy..and so nice of her..haha..thank u so much sis...muahaha..anyway pride is really nice..so i tink u sld sit down and watch wif me..muahaha...
ok i shall tok bout pride..i am currently watching it the second time cos..my first time was jz busy reading the fast changing sub title..muahaha..oh ya..the show is acted by takuya kimura...it is about him as a ice hockey player..as promised he cannot get into a real relationship..haha..and there was this gal hu is waiting for her long dist bf to come back on the bridge..so halu(takuya kimura) decided to play a game..which is to be bf gf until the return of the gal's bf...very sad de..as the started going out wif one another..they fell deeply in love wif one another..but at the same time..the bf really came back.ya..and the game ended by saying bye bye..boo hu hu..GAME OVER..but halu still love the gal alot alot alot..then halu went to canada to get the title of N.H.L..ya of course he g0t it and return to japan a few yrs later..haha..like every fairy tales..it has a happy ending..halu and the gal was in this ice skating ring(the place where they went on their first date)..haha..then got fire works..then halu ask the gal if she is willing to go to canada wif him..haha..and she agreed..so the show ended wif a kiss..muahaha..
it's so nice lo..love it man..and halu is so handsome..oh no..i getting to love takuya kimura more and more..haha..next i wan to watch beautiful life..haha..PRIDE ROX HALO ROX SHINKAI ROX..halu fav word.."maybe"

life the same..boo hu hu..still feeling the smae as ever...i feel like haibernating myself up and try my very best to forget everything..but iti will seems tt i am avoiding the proob..but wan can i do?feeling so terrible..boo hu hu..*broken heart*

haha..i tink i getting more and more pro in hidding my own feelings..muahaha..recently i jz seems to be keeping thing to myself and not even tell me good frenz..i find it rather diff to tell them and i dunno how to tell themm..haha..although i may feel very terrible but i tink i can take it bah..i dunno how long can i cont to take it but i'll try my very very best..dun ask me bout wat am i bothered or sad bout..cos i dun wish to say and if i really wan to say i will..my heart is crying..haiz..and i tink i noe y..arhz..and i know onli something can solve all the probs i am facing now...i dun wish to put on a fake smile everyday..but isnt this the way life sld be by putting up a mask in front of the others?it's jz hard to be true..

muahaha..iam a super hardworking gal today...i packed the whole mess tt i made during the mid yr in the afternoon..i spent a total of 2 hr plus..sit there sorting out all the worksheets and putting all the book in order and throwing away all the unecessary things..muahaha...i am like so proud of myself...so tired after packing everything..muahaha..yawning while i am packing too..muahaha...i am a super hardworking gal..i am so proud of myself..haha..but i dunno how long the neatness can stay cos when i start studying...things will start to pile up again..haha..i promise to try to be neat to safe myself frm all these trouble..cos i almost fainted while packing the stuff..haha..
tml got sch le..sianz...i am so in a holiday mmod..nvm..this will be the last week of the whole term..yipee!
ya..went to jp to eat dinner today..then saw xu zheng rong!he is so handsome lo...his voice is also so sexy..muahaha...din manege to take a pic of him cos my mum is holding onto my phone at tt time..boo huhu..
do u mean wat u say..but y in real life wat is say is so diff frm wat u do?am i given false hope again..stop being a liar..cos i hate to be cheated..
oh ya..love this sentence frm "hai tun wan lian ren"--zhi yao xiang xing qi dai jiu hui cheng zhen!i hope this can be true..muahah..but it's onli a show anyway..haha..although i do hope my life to be like a drama series (ou xiang ju)..haha..

is results all they care...ya i also feel sad bout my results wat..sorry tt i did so badly la..but do u have to keep reminding me of my bad results..telling me hoiw bad i did and me forever using the com?
i hate to be the onli child left at home..cos they got all the time to give me the attention and nag at all the smallest thing they can find..issit wrong to be home..go out also cannot saty home also cannot..wat they wan me too..i jz wish to do the thigns tt i feel like doin..am i wrong..cant u all jz leave me alone for once...boo hu hu...
i chose not to say anymore by keeping quiet but they still nagging..jz feel tt they are jz going to slap me if i still cont to use the com..haiz..dunno la...

i got 21 for LiR5..muahaha..told my mum bout it and i tink she is feeling quite disappointed..but my sis say tt she got more than me the previous time..haha..tink to let me feel better..i am going to work very hard during the next few mths to get my 13 for L1R5 and below..muahaha..Ganbate!!!!

i got 2 B3 and i tink this is going to be the best i can do..i tink i sld be happy bout it..as there all still many ppl out there to do worst than me... =)

GOLD!!!!!!!!!! 

feeling like shit today..took back 3 paper today...i got nth but C5..i am jz so fated wif the no 5...but i dun wan to get anymore 5..but i know tt i am going to get another 5 tml for geo..i am feeling so sad now..boo hu hu..went home st after sch and spent all my time slping before my maths tuition..during tuition i also sit there in the daze tinking bout all my shitty results...oh no wat am i going to do.i am so going to get L1R5 above 20..boo huhu...i am like so sad bout my chi..since last yr i have been getting my C5..and for this mid yr..i jz hope to get a B4 but i still get my C5...boo hu hu..i am really really very sad...arhz..i cant take this!!!!!enough of all my toopid results..i feel tt sajc is so far now..i sld jz set my hopes at jjc or pjc..but ireally cannot imagine myself not going to sajc and not getting L1R5 below 13..hopefully...haiz..i mz cont to work very very very hard to achieve my goals...HIAZZZZZZZZ

my little cousin gave this to me..cute rite? 

oh no...bad news bad news..although i din get any paper back today but by hearing all the results tt ppl are getting i am already so numb bout everything...all i wish is tt i wun get more than 20 for L1R5..but i tink w will..i so dun wan to fail my eng..i can afford to fail anything alse more than eng cos if i fail my eng..i'm gone...i dunno y mr singh has high expectation on me..but oh plz..my eng is really a gone case..if i can get a C5 and above i am more than happy le..and tt's my little hope onli..hope i will really attain my hope..

went to imm wif han han min min and kat to eat a late lunch today..dunno walk how many rounds ard the food court then i decided wat to eat..haha..took the same bus wif mr chng to imm..haha..he is so funny...so friendly...haha...i shall give him back the fame of being toot toot chng..muahaha...

oh ya my BDAE IN 30 DAYS TIME!!!!!wuhoo!!!!!!!

u make me sick la..

i regretted so much...i was looking thru all my pic..iand i realised tt i am given alot of chances to play in public..a proper concert wif many pro ppl...haiz..but the sad thing is i tink i nvr make full use of it..i regretted not giving in my best..i regretted not improving myself..after 3 yrs of playing the saxophone..i feel so remorseful..cos i noe tt if i work super hard last time..i am so going to be much better...regrets regrets regrets..i dun wan my juniors to be like me..i wan them to noe tt i really wan them to work very hard..as i believe their passion for playing the sax is already there...all they have to do now is to put in the hard work and thay will be able to do it..i am so more than willing to help them in all ways...i dun wan them to be like me...i wan them to graduate knowing tt they did something great..it's nvr enough to do ur best...u have to exceed ur so called limit then u will know tt actually u can do better...regrets regrets regrets...calling out to all my sax juniors..if u ever read this..plz really listen to me can..plz..this is the last thing tt u all can do to maybe thanks the seniors for all the things we had done for u all..i really plead u all the work very hard..u all still have time..so plz do it..practise on all the technical before u ever tink of playing a piece of MUSIC WELL...and remember tt air is free and air support is the key to all doors in playing ur instrument!

oh ya..read some ppl frenster..i suddenly feell tt gals are really getting more and more daring...they jz love to foold ppl testi jz by saying nth but rubbish..dotz..ya i noe i have no rights to say them..but tt's a fact and i jz feel like saying..

mummy is nagging at my ears again..@!%#^@$*#%$%(%^(#^(^#(*&@)&@$#@...saying tt i keep on use the come..then the electricity bill very high la..watever..i'm bored..ya still nagging...arhz..i wan to go out soon..but i tink i will onli be out at 3++pm..dotz..
sneezing..nose dropping..pissed off...confused...helpless..tired...
cant u stop nagging..arhz..she let me fear to me a mom..i wun wan to let my child suffer under a big hi-5 set everyday..dotz...

yuhoo...my exam is over..muahaha..so happy bout it..a day without book and stress.happy sha la la...it's so nice to be happy...
went to eat seoul garden today wif my family..haha...had so much fun as we reall tok alot of crap..haha...i can laugh bout the toopidest thing tt can happen lo..took some pics today..but i onli posted one tt i really love it..as i took it wif my bestie han han and lulu...haha...
eat alot..then now feeling very heaty..haha..i tink tt i am going to fall sick very soon..haha..but i dun wan..cos i wan to go out..watch movie...
oh ya..maths paper today was bad...i am like scolding all the vulgarities during the whole paper...and the setter of tt paper MARGARET LOH is like so happy tt we cant do his paper..idoitic lo..feel like slapping her looking at the grin on her face..arhz..i am so going to do so badly thanks to her...boo huhu...
but hu cares..it's ok..hope i will do fairly well bah...wish for the best but be prepared for the worst..

me and mama 

me and papa 

took wif yuhan and louise today...love this pic.. 

yippee...it's tml..i have been losing slp for the past few days..haiz...yes i cant slp..woke up at 1 am to study abit and try to go back to slp again..in the end i tink i din manage to slp..haiz..mz be exam stress..
this week jz seems to be so longggggggggggg...fri seems to hard to get to and far away..although it is onli tml..but i still have to study for e maths now..i torturous 4hr 30 min paper..haiz..i am so not in the mood..jz going to read thru my note book and tt's it..end of the story...
i am so going to do very badly for this mid yr..firstly..i am so not prepered..secondly..i jz dun tink i will...and lastly..the papars are all killer papar...
today's chem wasy shit..i am jz wrting my own fangling's law onto my ans and let me seems pro..but the fact is NO..i have to courage to take back all my papers and feel disappointed..so i am going to happy for a few days..and cont to mug for the most impt exam this yr..O level..ganbate!!!i can do it..[this doesnt help cos i have been telling myself this for the pass 8 days]

life is like hell..help..cant wait for everything to be over!!!muahaha

i am having my mid yrs now..but i'm online
cant u tink before u say something..dun u noe tt somethings tt u say may hurt someone deeply?there are things tt u cannot say cos u feel like saying de..cos of tt.i hate u...cos u dun deserve any respect..cos u hurt me..u disgust me..wat's on ur mind..i did nth to u but y do u have to hurt me so much...u dun have the rites to ruin my life!!!!!!yah u dun live up to ur name!