there i go quarelling wif my younger sis once again about small little things..but she is really getting on my nerves as i already say her for many times le..when she take my things she will still tink tt she is correct and sld not be scolded..her smear on her face make me feel like slapping her and pinch her face and make the whole face filled wif blue black..i totally cannot stand her..i mean she is like so stubborn lo..mz be her toopid sch tt giving her such discipline prob...boon lay sec sch sux..they have self proclaimed holiday as and when they feel like it..no wonder their sec fours are not performing..anyway they set low quality paper so tt all of the ppl will do so well in sch but do badly in o..muahaha..watever...most importantly i hate my sis and simply tinks tt she is a bitch!..not she is threatening us tt she will kill herself and stuff..how childish can she get..come on treasure ur life..it's too late to regret..no one will pity u if u really go kill urself..no one will tink tt u are a heroine..all will jz tink tt u are toopid and sld deserve to die..

was trying to do some maths but the papers anre like to tedious tt i dun feel like doing anymore..but hor...i am going to continue later la..cos prelim is less than a mth away..tt's so fast..haha..i wonder wat will i get if i cont to go at this rate..muahaha...

moi sis in her lab coat and big goggles.. 

me in my sis's lab coat and the big goggles..muahaha..i am a crazy scientist! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAMIN..haha..my fakey lao po is officially 16 yrs old now..may all ur wishes com true in the following yr k?and stay happy and funky always...all the best for ur o level..muahaha..(aniwae happy bdae to zhi hao too!!=))
my zen neeon was spoiled and i went to repair it today..ermz..yah..not repair la..they changed a new one for me..muahaha..and all my songs are gone and i got to upload them again..haiz..no time la..tink will do it one day when i'm real free..haha..
cried in class today..trying so hard to hide my tears but they jz cant stop rolling down my cheeks..i dun mean to cry la..haiz..regrted so much bout it..i wil learn to be stronger gal!!!

me and zq 

me and padey 

jongling zq and me 

the second altos 

i am having a bad temper nowadays..having mood swing as and when i feel like it..and this is really bad..cos tt is noy be..
i cant believe tt i am troubled by some complicated thing again..which i am not suppose to tink bout it at this time and make my whole life seems like a mess..arhz..i hate myself!!!
heard news bout the dsa thingy..haiz...so headache and worried!!!

it has been so long since i blog..haha...i tink quite alot of things happen between this time ba..
i went for two concert at esplanade..one was toyko kosei's and one was the presentation nite for the top bands in spore for SYF..muahaha...toyko kosei's was great..although the pieces they played are rather boring..but technical wise they were great...and i dun expect so many ah pek wif white hair in the band..muahaha..in conclusion..they are really GREAT!the presentation nite was rather disappointing..haha..some schs like acsi are indeed performing up to standard..i believe it is cos juniors are also included in the performance and tt it is hard to play like SFY standard anymore..muahaha..the best band was sajc then sas..haha..sajc was really good..they play so well..u can get so touched by their persis man..haha..very nice very nice..but the solos all seems so nervous tt they are not performed to the fullest..ya..sas did rather well..but the curtain up was not up to the recording's standard..muahaha..ya and tt ernest did not cock up his solo..
there are some unhappiness happening in my 'family'..and i am quite sad about it lo..haiz..i really dunno wat to do lo...i really do care..but i dunno wat to do le..i am so confused...
tml going to hongyu's house for steamboat..so cool rite?haha..nvr had steamboat wif my frenz before..kind of looking forward to eat cos i tink food will be great...yuhan excited bout the fried rice she is going to cook..haha..everyone is excited..
trying not to tink bout....

i am a bad fren...how can i call myself good fren of someone and be the last to know bout stuff..ya..ta first i was quite sad to be the last to know..but at second tots..i tink i was somehow my fault for being so busy and not making the extra effort to know more bout her and stuff..i took it for granted tt she will tell me if anything happen..maybe i nvr tink of how she feel and make her supper lonely..i noe she will nvr get to read this..but i jz wan to tell her tt i really do care about her lo..i really cherish the frenzship btw me and her and hope to be good frenz wif her forever...haiz...i dunno wat to say..but i noe i am hurt emotionally..haha..a fren tt i cant contact easily and lost touch wif...

crap..ppl ard me are getting shitty..i mean the grown ups..haha..i tot grwon ups a re suppose to be more mature and sensible than we young ppl..but i tink tt it is untrue..cos two specific example prove me wrong..and i am simply so disgusted by wat they did..
firstly..mr do do tan the 'conductor' of cmb and AMKMB...shit him la..i cannot accept all the crap tt he did to our band lo..i dun tink my juniors deserve all the insults and sacastic remarks he made lo..shit him la..i dun believe my juniors did not work as hard as the amk ppl..i tink my juniors are the best...i dun care..maybe i am bias..but tt's the fact..even the amk peeps also tink tt he is bias..wat a fat pig..i tink he is a unprofessional conductor tt will take sides...i tink it may be better for him to leave cos his heart is no longer in cmb..so wat for make life diff for all..mkaing my juniors feel so inferior and stuff...this is total crap..and u do not deserve my respect..
ya and tt toopid mrs loh..i hate her man..all he noe is to act demure and well educated..i tink she puts on a mask all ard..hu cares if she drives a volvo..hu cares if she live in big house..a person without good character is nth..rich not = to good..sht tok w/o going thru her brain..she have no rite to say ppl cos she is no much better..dun even understand wat toopid logic she has in her pea brain..eee...yucks...


and KENNY PHUA JING WEN IS TOOPID!!!

it's seven nite of july two days ago..haha..i noe tt my entry is kind of retarded but this day is jz quite impt to me..cos cmb got their second gold by playing the choice piece "seven nite of july"..this is the day whereby the nu lang and the zi nu can meet each other once in a yr..so sad rite..haha..i pair of lover tt can onli meet once a yr..boo hu hu...haha..seven nite of july is also called 'tanabata'..i believe tt it is in jap...the song can be some how broken into 3 parts..the second part is the nicest as i tink tt part is the part all bout romance..nice chords and good melody...to cmb..the piece is quite diff since it is a grade five piece..but of course cmb have great determination to do well and we did go frm a silver band 2 weeks before SYF to a gold band on the actual day..haha..so proud of us..cmb rox...

so too all lover and the lonely ones-HAPPY SEVEN NITE OF JULY!!!!!

nxt week is a long week..tink ican onli go online on fri..even if i come online beofre fri...it's cos i jz dun feel like studying..wish me luck for nxt week!=)

feeling abit sad today..haiz..i dunno la..someone jz make me feel i am such a bad gal..i dunno..y is ppl so hard to please..and y am i always the one tt seems to be offending her..i tot she is one of the person tt really noe me the best and stuff.but it turn out differently..i am always making her angry..but sometimes i jz dun feel tt is my fault..arhz..y mz she do this to me..we have been frenz for many years..haha..i tot we can be frenz forever..haha..but i dun tink so..haha..i tink i am going to stop myself frm toking too much to her to aviod making her angry again...fine maybe i jz suck and is so irritating!

jz now the 'tong xin yuan' show..the yang yang say "ai yi ge ren shi rang ta yong yuan xing fu kuai le"..i really wonder is this so..haha..human beings are greedy ppl..we will nvr be contented by wat wif have..haha..but this statement is a way to console one when he or she canot have their love one by their side..muahaha..

oh no..i am having this serious mental block now..came home doing nth except for slping watching tv and eat..i noe tt i ahve so many this to be completed by tml but i jz dun feel like doing..i am so tired...
next week is worst..i have a total of 4 test..frankly speaking i tink the sch is so crazy..all the teacher onli noe how to tell us tt it is jz for this few mths..but they understand how much we suffer not..all their test are not onli a few topics..is the whole syllabus lei..they tot we wonder ppl..reach home after remedial @ 4pm still got energy to do things..i hate the teachers..sometimes i jz feel like slapping them by looking at the grin on their face..F*** la...crap sch is shit..i dunno how can tahan till..i am so afraid tt i will break down very soon...
sld i pon sch tml?boo hu hu..shall force some sickness out of me..

muahaha..i have to be a ming fu qi shi de nerdy(real nerd)..a nerd tt do nth but studying..eat wif the book slp wif the book die wif the book..haha..since i am onli 16 i sld not care bout anything else except frm studies..haha..nerds rox k?there is no crime for having long skirt long socks and big glasses..tt's a trend for nerds.muahaha..we sld all be nerds..let nerdy look be the next in thing in spore..haha..we are not going to wear ankle socks and mini skirt..we are going to wear flowery shirt and super long skirts..

p.s i am so going to going to take the nerdy goggles frm the sch sci lab!!!hiak hiak hiak..shh...dun tell anyone...secret!

my whole mood is spoiled by my younger sis..shit her la..now then let me use the com...fri is like my onli day tt i can really use the com and she still wan to eat up all my precious time..shit her la..cannot stand her serious attitude prob..say do project..ya..doing..looking at tt few slides for hundreds over time..changing the colours of the backgrd abnd stuff..arhz..pissed off..
dunno wat to blog bout cos i am currently not in the mood..anyway my life is very boring now..so there's nth much i can tok bout..
today..yuhan performing at the SFY opening ceremony..hope things go well for her and she can take a pic wif tt handsome guy tt she is so crazy over..haha..actually i can somehow imagine how the guy looks like..haha..
going for 2 band concerts this mth..haha..so looking forward to them as both are of a very high standard...one is tokyo kosei band and the other is the presentation nite of the top few bands for SYF 2005!yipee!=)