wat can i say?i'm totally stressed out..slping can no longer help to destress..wat am i suppose to do now?tml is my first proper paper..hmt..ermz..it can be one of the subject tt i'm bad at..haha..anyway a onli need a pass to minus 2 more marks frm my L1R5..but i am still going to put in my best since it may be the last time i can really study for a chi exam beh..haha..cos i tink if i pass then i dun ahve to take chi in jc anymore..muahaha..eh..quite happy bout it..cos chi is really not my cup of tea even tough i speak chi alot..haha..sianz..still got so much more things to study..hao le..jiu ci ge bi..update soon..

degree vs diploma!!???

waking up everyday in fear..haiz..i also dunno wat am i afraid of..but i am jz scared..dun let me be alone..cos i will have the feeling again..dun allow me to tok bout it again cos i'll cry..i dunno wat to do to be more brave..or i can do now is to make myself do nth but study..
today is so cold..i can feel tt my organs are all vibrating..muahaha..ya tt's the feeling i always get when i am super cold..tml i am going to bring two jackets to keep myself warm..haha..
i tink i wan to go for sajc for my first 3 mths..but mama say too far dun wan..but i really wan to go to the sch badly..since i cant go for 2 yr..y cant i go for 3 mths then..i promise nt to complain tt i am tired or anything..haha..i bet i will have fun..haha..in great dilemma and depression..

i'm in great depression..as uall noe tt i lost my hp..haha..not onli tt i lost my mp3..muahaha..mz be wondering how toopid can i get to lose so many things at the same time..haiz..long story.. and i dun wish to tok bout it anymore le..i am feeling super duper sad..i dunno how to expalin how i feel now..and i bet none of u can feel how i feel now..haiz.haiz..wat can i say..haiz and more haiz..BOOHUHU!!!!!!!!!!

i hope tt he is here for me to tok to...

lost my hp..so plz tag me to give me ur contacts if possible..if not email me at blueie_west@hotmail.com!thanks

tml is my last day of sch in commonwealth sec sch le..although i dun really like the sch..but i have been in this sch for more than 3 yrs le..comfrim got gan qing one..and i believe this few yrs are the times and memories tt i will always remember..
remember the first day i noe tt i will be going to 4/4..i was quite sian diao..cos this is a well known bitch class.and the class is onli going to make up of students of 2/1 and 2/1..and at tt time we are like enemies wif 2/2 de(tinking of it make me blush..how childish can we get?)..but fortunately all my good frenz will be in the same class as me..haha..so tt's one thing tt make me look forward to..haha
however things din turn out tt bad..we made frenz wif the others and became a class..haha..started the whole family thingy and stuff..haha..my class is made up of ppl of all races..haha..the indian is real funny..they want to set up is company call global somthing(dunno how to spell)and they seems super serious bout it..haha..anyway wish them luck and hope it really come true..haha..the malays in my class are a bunch of cool ppl..if u dunno then u will jz tink tt they are so dao and unfriendly..but actually they are reall nice ppl..haha..as for the chinese..or course we are the best(muahaha..i am so racist)jkjk..the closest to me are of course the gals..and the guys sld be kenny shi hao and weijun are more on toking term..haha..
suddenly feel very very sad..almost cried jz now..i really will miss them lots..i will miss all the fun and stuff...i love 4/4..tt's wat i cant deny..although we din have much class spirit..watever..i still love them!
bringing cam to sch tml..taking lots of pics..gonna be brave and ask everyone to take a pic wif me..haha..i will really miss them..boo hu hu..thank u for everything..love u all lots..
to jiamin:really hope tt we can cont to keep in touch k?dun be lazy to meet up wif me k?haha..will miss u lots de..after o we shall go shopping together..yippe..jia you for ur o..u can do it de la..u so clever.so dun ahve to worry..jia you jia you..love u..muackz..
to tianju:thanks for being sch a nice fren for yrs beh..jia oyu for u o..u are doing well now..jz have to work harder and u can do even better..jia you jia you..remember keeping ur moral high is the most impt thing k?ganbatte..keep in touch..love ya!muackz..

today is the last 3 days of sch...i mean official sch day..tt i have to reach sch at 730 nad have to marks attendance..haha..yippee..but hor..i am feeling quite sad bout tt cos i am really leaving the sch..haha..wat can i say lei..this feeling is so weird and stufff..
anyway i got nice teachers..qin lao shi gave each and every student a tin and a personalise note for all..haha..then today miss ridz gave us this card and choc..haha..she still cried lo..i tink she really love us lots and will miss us lots..haha..outside ppl might tink tt she is fierce or wat..but she is jz putting up a false front to earn respect from the students..haha...she is really a vary nice person..
i love my class although we are not bonded..i will remember all the funny jokes tt the indians like to make..haha..i will remember the cool cool malays..i will remember all the chi ppl too..haha..wat a multi racial class..will miss them lots..

having swollen eyes again..dunno if can go to sch tml not..haha..if can then go if cant then dun go lo.haha..i am still as tired as usual..
chance of seeing is ZERO!
quite happy recently..got a fren back..talking joking once agian..so happy bout it..haha..i can go gu gu ga ga bout it..screaming my lungs out! muahaha..eh..looking forward for the nxt conversation..
i'm so proud of myself..i tink i somehow became more mature..haha..dunno lei..wish to grow taller to meet up to my "intelligence"..haha..juz joking

this is my 230 post-
not going to sch tml..haha..tired..jz need a day off frm all the early waking and late slping time..haha..have been forcing myself to go to sch this few days cos of a the various reasons..waking up later and later..i jz dunno y..i jz suddenly feel tired easily..haha..i am purely lazy bah..huh?but really very tiring lei..
o level in 25 days time..can u totally believe it..haha..i mean 4 yrs ago i am still busy wif all the useless and toopid stuff and today i have to really sit down for hrs each day to prepare for an exam tt decide my future..the tinking of me having onli one chance to prove myself makes me so scared..how?i can let this tinking affect me..shall try to erase it away frm my mind..
guess wat..my L1R5 miracally dropped to 15 now..haha...so if i do well for my a maths for the retest, i may get 13 lei..then i will get nearer and nearer to my acjc..haha..happy sha lala

wat a day today..was tinking to pon cos i am really not feeling well yest..haha..but in the end i still went..see i'm wat a good gal!muahaha..

but thank god tt i went today..cos today the sch anounced a quite a good news..am i suppose to say tt it is a good new?cos we are allowed to retake one paper for those wif L1R5<20>20 can retake u papers..but the thing is the subject will be chosen by the teachers..haha..i hope they will let me retake a maths..i mz pray so hard for it..hopefully i can gete an A1 when i retake lo..haiz..dunno wat to do le la..so wait for tml see wat they say lo..

mugging?i tink i stil kind of slack lo..i slept for 2 hrs this afternoon jz cos i simply to tired to get out of bed..after i woke up..i realised i dun have time to do wat i am suppose to do today le..how?panic...going to do my chi later..prove it to KENNy tt i can finish..throw it rite at his face tml..

idiotic kenny cannot stop saying my..his life only revolve ard the his ys..i tink he is rather insensible..dunno him la..no comments.

PROM is compulsory!can u believe it?i totally dun feel like going de lo..now i have to save up and go on a diet..this is like so shit..waste my money..cant stand it..i tink i will do my best to get away frm it..haha..wondering hu to share table wif cos i tink many still not going..

i cant understand ppl having too strong comments bout things..i tink if it's so life will be so tough..i rather live in a life tt i choose to be happier by clsing one eye and cont living..i cant stand it..so stop it..cos u may get on my nerves..yah maybe it;s true tt u sld fight for ur own rites and stuff..but since it's like a so long thing le so then jz get on wif life lo..i mean wat can u do..we live in a selfish world..