it's 1.19am now..haha..jz finish mugging for my phy(moments)..shit la..i cant even do such a simple topic how can i do the rest..tired but i still tink i need to blog..cos i got so much thing to say..

din go to sch today cos i got 2 days mc..muahaha..dun waste it mah..mind as well dun go..haha.anyway my eyes are still a little swollen..haha..met wif my pri sch frenz to go back jps again..haha..the last yr jps goinging to be at the old building..moving to this big big building by the end of the yr..boo huhu..din manage to bring my cam to take some pics..

met ms chan..haha..she is so nice..she took the initiative to ask us if we wan to go eat or anything then she still stay up till 1.30am tt nite to make the gal some hair clips which are so nice..haha..thank u so much..did manage to tok to her face to face..she is very nice and wat she say really make me want to work harder cso i noe alot of ppl is supporting me..she said tt'no matter wat results we get,she still love us equally'..have u every heard of a teacher saying such swit stuff to u..i am proud to say tt i have!she is a teacher tt i really treasure alot lo..

met wif the principle too..mr goh liang chuan..haha..he is still as nice as before..haha...i tink he is quite glad tt we all had grown so big and are or doing very well..haha..miss all his actions and kuo tou chan..haha..

i promise to work hard frm now on cos i noe i got many ppl tt are supporting me and really hope i do well for my o..i will try my very best and produce my best results..of course by HIS strength!

i love tianju and louise..frenz 4ever..

happy and tired..going to slp soon..off to mug again tml..


jz wan to say tt i am jz as disgusted..no one took the initiative to make things better..including u..u mean all the little msgs tt u gave can resolve all probs..u are wrong..cos u have somehow lose it..it's too late to even wan it back now..no one has taken it away frm u..it's u hu din fight for it in the first place..so stop making a fuss out of things..if u tink they are ur true frenz..tink again cos i truely dun tink so..backstabbing each other?oh haha..wat a joke!getting excited bout stuff dun means tt u truely care..cos we ppl normally put on a mask..so wat for i be the one..i jz wan to be me..it's u all hu show me the frenz tt i sld really treasure bah..u make me more dun feel like going..haha..and i bet u suceeded by getting all the attention u wan..muahaha..i am utterly disappointed too..thank u family for really giving me wonderful memories..i do admit i did love the family before..tt day i was looking at the family guy pic on wanting's notebk..haha..i am so glad tt i know all of u...but tink again..are we really called a family..i'm sorry..

today is a tiring day for me..muahaha..went to play badminton wif my cousins and uncle and aunties..haha..i exercise for 2 whole hours k?i do badminton of course and running..haha..wat to the ntu sports complex..haha..cool place..the changing room was big..haha..din saty in long cos very quite and i am alone..haha.scared la..haha..came home and slp for bout 2 hours..haha..sorry i am jz too tired..haha..fun day bah..shall go nxt week too..provided can book the court..haha..

my cheeks are getting red..not cos of anything but pimples..haha..stress level going up..haha..pimples starting to pop out here and there..so sian lo..i am so sick..i am so going to go for facial soon..i dun care..i cant stand pimples..haha..

told my parents i wanted to learn violin after my o..my mum kind of not willing...then of course i grumbled and protest..haha..my father is kind enough to ask me to go check out the price..haha..atleast i am given the chance..but if too ex i also dun tink i can le..i mean i really envy all those tt who can effort to learn all sorts of instruments..i wish to learn sax piano and violin..but i am too poor..sis in u need alot of money..how?sld save more..haha..but even if i dun eat everyday also wun have enough money de..haha..but i really wan to learn..tell me wat to do!

4/4'2005 

ya..had me first prelim paper today..no comments..no longer going tink bout it..i did best best..so i am going to let god do the rest for me..

went for dinner wif yongxian tian ju and hongyu after tt..haha..then went to library to "study"..haha..not many ppl in the library so we toked quite loud and laugh laugh..they still say i added fun into their life..i cant believe wat they say..muahaha..(i was lying)..yong xian is so naive..she believe i rebonded my hair jz for 20 bucks..haha..so funny man..then before we go in seperate ways..i say i will go home and rebond my hair..and she believe!so cute of her!

saw xiner blog today..haha..tink she is real angry and i also dun wat really happen..but i hope things are fine...jz a piece of advise..really hope u juniors learn to respect one other..dun take advantage of the frenship between one another and realy climb over ppl's head bah..cos there's a limit to all things..

prelim is starting today..muahaha..starting to feel abit nervour and stuf..cos time is really running up..haha..looking at oeveryone;s blog..all toking bout prelim cuming and getting good grades..haha..

sld have less com less tv and less food..haha..and study more more more..haha..i got to set my priority rite..cos my future is in my hand..jia you fangling!u can do it!muahaha..(jz need some self motivation)

back to study for chi..jz wish all ppl taking their hmt paper today all the best and may u remeber all the things u studied for..haha..jia you..and good luck..A1 here we come!!!!!!!!!!

life as per normal...i am still feeling tired now..cos today is a long day..i had so much to do and went to study till 8pm+++ at jurong east library today..tired nah..
today saw 4/4 class photo..so nice sia..i feel tt's like so cool lo..i tink all the pics look so nice..all of us look so pretty and handsome..haha..cant wait to get hold of them..then i shall post it up on the blog to show everyone..cos i am proud of it..haha..
my sis passed her driving exam..muahaha..so shocked..shall not elaborate cos later she come and read my blog and kill me..haha..
dunno wat to blog bout..ermz..so shall end here lo..tata..

i jz wan to say tt i am very tired..haha..the the very verge to say tt i give up,dun wan to take o level le la..
this few days went to the library to study..so everyday got study at least for 3-4 hours..hours of real study k?no slacking..no eating..haha..jz alittle small tok here and there and a few toilet trip..coming home feeling so tired..i can feel tt my eyes is like swelling cos it is jz too tired..haiz..but wat to do..got so much things to do..since i am not clever i can onli work harder to make sure i will see some results le lo..
prelim is next fri..my my..prelim k?dun play play..must study very hard for it..i tink i have to do some sacrifice and get some scoldings frm the teachers to fight for more time to study for my chi..haha..cos i dun wish to do tt badly for it..haha..pray for me..=)

nth can affect me..nth can distract me..go away frm me, all devils!

i tot i was strong enough

i tot i cld jz treat nth happen

i tot i can be the same

i tot .....

but wat..i cant..cos i am a failure..i cant believe when i came to sch today i suddenly dun feel like toking..i jz wan to keep so quiet..this is so not me..i am losing myself..ii'm feeling so terrible..i jz wan to me myself again..haha..i dunno how long will this continue..jz dunno..

i feel tt ppl are selfish..i cant help it but feel so..they will always tink of themselves first then anyone else..however..we ppl cant stand selfish ppl on the other hand..isnt this ironic..to a certain extent..i tink we ppl sld spare a little tots for the others and stop living in a world tt revolve ard u..u cant deny the fact tt ppl are always backstabbing u..even within a grp of good frenz..no one is jz willing to clear up the misunderstanding..so things jz go on and on..jz cant stop tinking bout how my frenz will backstab me at my back..are all this ppl called ur frenz anymore?hahahahaha..i dun tink so at all..frenz are not suppose to be defined this way..wat i predicted is coming true..SELFISH!!!!!!!!!

jz another sunday..muahaha..woke up at 9...cos i made an effort to wake up one hr earlier to make up for my laziness yest..muahaha..ermz..did the acsi vector ws..ermz..rather diff..but the worst are more to come..haha..ya then did the chem paper blah blah blah..haha..but i go alot dunno how to do..shall ask kenny phua tml..muahaha..
suppsoe to have me last phy tuition lesson today..but i pon again..cos i simply hate phy lo..i jz cant make myself sit down and study phy..still got phy mock test this thurs..haha..going to fail again..haha..
went to the library to study instead...haha..tot i wld be alone..but i saw tian ju instead..haha..and young xian and her fren..haha..sat wif tianju and started to do some work..muahaha..i fin the phy tys qns i was given k?muahaha..so cool rite?!i did phy for so long k?haha..found out tt our sch's paper is really rather diff lo..haha..
went home bout 4.30..haha..pei tianju go eat something then go home le..
tian ju told me something today..things work in both ways..if u wan someone to respect u..u first have to respect the person..tink again..i very agree to wat she say...thank u tian ju for teaching me something new again..muahaha..tian ju can nvr be a bad infleunce..haha..
got to go study soon..

i am a lazy gal today..went studying wif tian ju and yong xian(and yong xian's fren from afar)..ermz..did abit of things la..but i came home slacking my way till now..haha..i am suppose to be doing my geo by today..but in the end i din..i am suppose to hand in my eng assignment tml..but i decided not to do..oh no..wat am i doing..fangling is a bad gal..
have not been doing well for mock test recently..how?how?how?i am pressing on the alert button now..prelims is onli 15 days away and i haven even started my revision..no time no time...how?how?how?someone tell me wat am i suppose to do..give me more time to more things..
this is the second time i am pressing very hard on the alert button this yr.. the previous time is during SYF..now is more impt...how well i do for me prelim and o level determine my future..i got super high hopes and tian ju is always scolding me cos of tt cos i tend to give myself lots of pressure..but isnt this the way life sld be..dunno la..after o level i am going to party like mad..haha..maybe slack thru my jc one life too(provided i get into a jc)
so bei guan of me...

grp photo 6(jieli and nizal suppose to be kissing) 

grp photo 5 

posing again..haha..so fun! 

wide smile and big eyes 

extra fahrul 

the gals..frenz forever.. 

wat are they trying to do again?! 

grp photo 4 

grp photo 3 

took ourselves de lei..haha.. 

our shoes again 

me tian ju and yong xian 

sleeping...zzzz 

kissing 

retro... 

wat is he doing?! 

grp photo 2 

at spotlight 

the mirror thingy at plaza sing..(they took alot) 

no flash..but so cool! 

posing(not in pic cos i am the photographer) 

so we took ourselves.. 

then our heads onli 

the guys are trying to be funny..take onli our body!